So, today is my 45th Birthday. What a day. What a number. What a life it’s been thus far.
I woke up feeling like it’s just another day. Then, I realized, is it half over? Oh boy, I HOPE not! But, then that’s the reality of life isn’t it? You’re born, you live and then you die….
Like I always say, “you’re here for a good time not a long time…. ____ (insert whatever it is – take the picture, get on the ride, cut your hair, try the new food), my point is, DO IT. Do whatever it is that you thought twice about, was hesitate about, didn’t think you could do or maybe didn’t even want too. By doing it, you have nothing to lose but, the regret of not living. Now, is that easier said than done, yes of course. That’s life and why most times life is hard…. Sometimes harder for others.
So, with that, this is going to the be my year of self love and discovery. I don’t know if I’m such a fan of that saying, “living your best life”, as to infer that I wasn’t doing that before or trying my best, as I think we are all trying, or maybe that’s how my sensitive ass takes it and reads into it. Funny how a positive saying can pull out the negative in you. Instead of just being like, yes, i love that…. Live your best life, my internal self immediately shoots back with, “what do you think I’ve been trying to do”? Oh, the luxury of self doubt, lol. But what I due know, is now that I have 45 years under my belt, I can say that I understand the saying for what it means for me a little bit better now.
What does the blueprint of this new found self love, discovery and hope look like? Oh for fuck sakes, I have no idea. I know what I want it to look like, and feel like but, do I have a solid plan, no. That’s what this is all about, building the blueprint to a new foundation. Now, if you know me, you know I LOVE accessories and have a good eye for style, I can create the prettiest Pinterest boards about everything but, to actually believe that i deserve or could even be what is in/on the board, is where I’ve truly struggled.
Today is the first day that I will start to see myself, as I invisioned in the board. Strong, powerful, beautiful, elegant, bossy, consistent, confident, and kind.
Here’s to enjoying the day, giving myself some grace and having High Hopes!
You’re here for a good time, not a long time….. have some birthday cake!!!